[julianunes]

HI

First I wanna say that if you noticed I took down a bunch of my youtube videos, THANKS. It means a lot that you’re paying attention. I love those videos too. They’re a pretty amazing time capsule of who I was/where I started, both of which I am super proud. I can’t wait to look back on that stuff 10 years from now, tiny little me, figuring some stuff out in front of the Internet.

There’s not a lot of opportunity for nostalgia now that everything is on the Internet. I can scroll through the last 7 to 10 years of all of my friends lives. It’s all right there, on the surface, reminding us, even though we haven’t forgotten. I want to give myself the opportunity to look back on this stuff the same way I look back on the rare documentation of me in a dress in high school or the coveted pictures of my butterfly clip days and for that to happen, they need to go away for a bit.

That’s not the only reason I took them down though. I’m putting out an album real soon and I’m super fucking proud of it. I love it. I’m dancing around my apartment to this album (on 1 leg bc my knee is still healing) and I WANT EVERYONE ELSE TO HEAR IT. I’m going for it you guys. I got an incredibly chill/cool/sweet PR company (shout out Nate at Impulse Artists!!) and I’m shooting fancy music videos and rehearsing with my BAND so we can play the arena stage at VidCon IN A WEEEEEK!!! With every step I get more and more excited about what this year could hold for me. I wanna play huge shows AND living room shows. I wanna do fancy high profile interviews AND super honest/impromptu Q&As on tumblr (shh I’m gonna do that right after I publish this, message me!!)

I took down a bunch of videos bc I don’t want what I’m doing now to be lost amongst what I’ve done for the past 8 years. I don’t want the best thing I’ve ever done to be 10% of what you can find if you’re looking. I want anyone who is just finding me now to see who I really am. Later, they can dig deep into the internet and find my nose ring but until then I wanna greet the world as I am now.

What’s cool is, everyone who’s been with me since the beginning is in a secret club. The people who knew The Quarry Men before they were The Beatles. The original crew who loved Unique Attraction before they were BOYZ II MEN. That’s us… Well that’s you guys… I’m neither of them. I’m Julia Nunes and I’m not changing my name but lots of other stuff has changed. I used to think I was a bad driver and now I know I’m not. I used to think I had an anger problem, turns out I don’t. I used to be on a constant “diet” but, like, diets never work and I was sad about it. Now I just eat veggies and fruit and fish (+some other delicious treats that are so healthy and good buuut lets talk about that in another long winded think piece) and my body has reacted in a million positive ways. I used consider myself a very “low maintenance” person but really, I wasn’t taking care of myself. Now, I’m much better at figuring out what I need and then actually going for it. I used to only write songs in times of deep distress, which wasn’t super often because I was very out of touch with my emotions. Now I write songs pretty constantly. I wrote like 80 half formed songs before I decided on the 11 that are on Some Feelings. There are dance tracks on this album but there is also a track that is just me (barely keeping it together) and a uke. “Fondly Enough” is maybe the saddest thing I’ve ever written, so in that way, I haven’t changed at all over the last 8 years. Still writing super sad rhyming diary entries.

There will always be resistance to change and the first roadblock is usually yourself. I think I was putting myself in a box there for a little bit, too beholden to the image I started with. It’s like coming on the scene as a disney star and having to freak out before you can really change up how people see you. I haven’t freaked out yet though so maybe I’m not doing it right.

Mostly I wanna say thanks for caring, thanks for changing with me.