Hey everyone. I don’t use Tumblr to talk about my feelings terribly often, but I figured why the fuck not?!
And on top of the general sense of love and being inspired, there’s a sense of real obligation. In a fucking incredible way. Because we share this internet love, we feel obligated to create our best work. It’s more motivation than I have ever experienced in my life. Like being motivated to keep my grades up, or make a ton of money, or impress an important stranger, or stay fit, or whatever. No other motivation has felt like this… Maybe I don’t know how to explain it, but having people who love you because you are good at the thing you love to do. Fuck. It’s the greatest feeling in the world and that feeling creates this ridiculously strong bond.
This is the first time in my life I’ve dated someone who feels the exact feelings I’m talking about, and we have never said a word about it to one another. I just know it by the way she has been handling this kickstarter. You all have seen her being gracious and humbled and beside herself. She has been so overwhelmed with love and support, it’s amazing to watch. And what’s more, she’s genuinely trying to repay you. There’s this thing inside of Julia that won’t let her take that funding if she doesn’t work for it, and it has been so incredible to see. With each jump in funds, she adds more work for herself. Be it, mixing, design, shows, videos, another album, new songs. She’s working so hard. AND it’s not even like she’s doing it for herself. Is she proud of what she’s done? Totally. Does she want you to be proud of what she’s done? 1000x more than anything. She’s nose-to-grindstone with this shit and it’s because you told her she could do it. The fucking look on her face with someone comments that her new song is good… It’s. I don’t know. I can’t explain it. It’s so fucking inspiring. She inspires me.
And I guess this is a thank you? A selfish thank you. Thank you for inspiring her, but more than that, thank you to that inspiration for inspiring me. I take for granted how lucky I am. To have so many people give a shit about what I do, and support me, and help me to believe in myself, and to motivate me to be creative in a way that I need so badly. Thank you for being those people. Thank you for being those people for Julia. Thank you for everything.
seven hours to go [
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One hour to go, I can not even. [xxx]