never, and i never have, even back when i was more likely to be the one with less
i don’t think sexual ‘partners’ are so easily quantified.
please run away from the idea
that sex is something quantifiable
or that “partners” is a place to begin to quantify
when it comes to 'sex.’
it’s a scale that makes 5 yrs of making love to the same person equal, in importance, to a drunken fuck with a friend that immediately seemed hilarious/over the next morning
it’s a scale that is outdated
sex is about many different things for different people at different times.
love, adventure, possession, relief, oblivion, revenge, lust, activity, dependence, appreciation, friendship, caring, hating, or anything. sex is about apple turnovers sometimes. but sex is never about numbers, about a hierarchy of numbers
your love had a life before you
this is always the case.
you need to leave room for that, back there
as you go boldly forward,
and find out what happens next