Team Technostraddle looks back on an awesome year of gaming. And then our thumbs fell off.
Why do you keep deleting your most recent blog entry? :-( <–sad face
because i’m scared that:
a) you don’t like me anymore
b) i don’t like me anymore
for so long i told you all so many things almost every day. even though i was almost always hiding one giant secret or another, i was emotionally honest with the entire internet almost every single day from about mid-2007 until very early 2009. though less and less so by the end of 2008.
now i’ve read too much about oversharing to not worry I’m doing it. now i’m scared that being authentic would mean losing everyone or being naked or being above all boring
also i can’t believe how many fucking words each of my posts used to be, wtf, if me 2007 was working for me 2010, i would tell me 2007 that under 1,000 words does not mean 4,000 words. I would tell her that over and over and over again ‘til she stopped talking so much while nobody really wanted to listen again. like a record on repeat
I feel like I’m reading every lesbian tumblr/websiteon the internet to see if one of them can tell me if i’m gay. so far the closest answer is that my ring finger is longer…
do you like girls? do you want to kiss them and eventually touch their private parts? then you’re “gay.”
do you also like boys? do you want to kiss them and eventually touch their private parts? then chances are you’re “bi.”
but also those are just words, and there are many other words you’ll find along your journey. The point is that you are supposed to live your life FIRST and then make labels SECOND. It’s not the other way around, though it certainly would be easier that way.
She’s Mormon.She says she wants to bend me over the kitchen table & fuck me. I’m okay with that scenario.I tell her she’s amazing.She tells me nice things too.She doesn’t want to be w/ a woman long term.I’m moving in w/ her. What the fuck am i doing?
i think what you are doing
is convincing her to be with a woman long term
it’s gonna be shitty and hard and it might not work
it might break your heart up
(but at least you’ll get bent over the kitchen table and fucked first, which is not for nothing)
but if you are doing this it’s because
you can’t NOT.
just don’t be confused about your mission here
which is
changing her mission.
i feel like we sometimes get all fucked up pretending like we’re trying to do something other than what we’re doing. you can tell yourself over and over again that “i don’t want a relationship right now so this isn’t happening” or “i understand that she could never be w/me b/c she believes in this weirdo alien story” but be honest with yourself.
just be honest with yourself and follow your heart and don’t lie.
then you win at life. heaven, hell, purgatory, reincarnation, the matrix, whatever.
do you like titanic (the movie)?
yes i cried because i was in love with leonardo dicaprio and he was dying in the ocean and i loved it so much that i stole the giant marquee from the movie theater (it was a very covert operation, required a getaway car etc) in wilmington ohio where i saw it with my cousin and then i split up the marquee object into three pieces (because it was giant and had three sides, like a cone thing idk) and then i put one on my wall at boarding school and gave one to my bff to put on her wall and then kept one in a closet somewhere for safekeeping where i hope for the love of g-d that somebody has disposed of since that time. i remember thinking some other movie deserved the oscar (ETA: GOOD WILL HUNTING) and feeling upset about james cameron being a douche. i actually never saw titanic again after that first viewing because my roommate had the soundtrack which i LOATHED and was constantly playing it which soured me towards it despite the giant poster on my wall of leo/kate kissing and the big ship and anyhow i had really, really, really serious feelings about leonardo dicaprio, not gonna lie. not anymore. he became a man and stopped looking like a girl at some point which was lame.
“i want to tell someone ‘I think I might be gay’” guess it’s not just me. im confused cause i dont know if i start to look at the other side (girls) because im lonely & havent been in a relationship for a year now or because i just might like girls.help?
I think that if you have to ponder/ask yourself this question, you probably are legitimately attracted to a girl (which is a beautiful thing) and are trying to justify it/make sense of it in some other way.
But you know… generally I think if you want to tell someone that you “MIGHT be gay” it’s probablyyyy because you like girls.
I want to tell someone “I think I might be gay.” Should I say it to: my only lesbian friend who lives 4 hours away OR my gay male friend who I live with? I’m not sad or self-loathing, but I’m just embarrassed to be 21 and still be confused about it.
I think you’ll end up telling both of them anyway no matter which way you go about this, duh.
Also, don’t be confused… life is a process. Your sexuality, I feel, is an ever-evolving process. If you like girls right now and want to tell someone, by all means!
We do care about the future when it includes a Muppet Movie featuring (maybe) Jim from The Office, Lady Gaga, Jane Lynch and Dave Grohl! In celebration of this fantastic futuristic event, we count…
period tumblr where are you?
hello good day to you
period tumblr is a thing now
i want to be honest with you guys, when i made the survey to name the tumblr, i had every intention of using whichever title won, but then everyone kept calling it ‘period tumblr’ in formspring q’s and on twitter and i thought, you know what? this bitch has already named itself.
so it’s period tumblr.
and it is here: http://periodtumblr.tumblr.com
also 'period tumblr dot tumblr dot com’ reminded me of 'just got born dot blogspot dot com’ and made me smile, so.
You are Puerto Rican too??? How much Cafe Bustelo do you consume in a day? Do you make it with the sock?? And how did I miss this?
Cafe Bustelo is quality. I love it.
I make it in a french press though… I don’t know what this sock thing is you speak of, but it’s funny I like.
how do you get your hair SO goddamn perfect!?
I don’t wash it. Seriously for like five days. Also, Got2B hairspray only. Dry shampoo on the 4th day. THIS SHIT IS SERIOUS.
When I was 12 this girl in high school really liked me. We were friends, but once I caught on to her liking me I ran. I broke her heart big time. I didn’t mean to. I was young and in denial I was bi. How do I say sorry w/o rekindling a friendship?
I feel like you are someone from my past…
Just say you’re sorry, dude! …if thats what you want to say.
Party of Five
Give me 5 of those 500 reasons to come out.
1. Living honestly to those around you is the single most important and influential thing you could do to change the world, those people, and that which makes it so difficult to come out in the first place itself.
2. For your girlfriend. For your future girlfriend(s). For your soul. Your dignity/integrity.
3. It will make you stronger.
4. Because you’re not ashamed.
And Amber Heard said that she came out because if she’s hiding something, it’s because she’s ashamed of it, which she isn’t. Just saying: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iGS8Vhe2kn4
5. Closets are for clothes.
6. Eventually I’ve found that not living honestly would’ve eaten me alive.
7. Because, for real… it’s really not that big of a deal. You kiss girls. NBD. People will get over this, I’ve found.
8. It always seems worse than it’s actually going to be, I guess like most things.
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