i refer to myself as lesbian, bisexual, “a bisexual”, queer, gay, homosexual, homogay, trashwhore, homo, gaymo… i know this sounds like a cop-out, but honestly i like the way certain words fit into sentences, i pick the best noun for the quality of the sentence or the best punchline, not b/c that’s how i identify that day.
i’m pretty sure i’ll never be with a man again, but my relationships with men weren’t a lie or a compromise. i was genuinely into those boys. so that to me is bisexual. but also, everyone keeps arguing about words all the time so i feel like, if nobody else can reach a consensus on what a certain word means – then i can make it whatever i want it to be, too. if you want a label, then that’s you doing you, you know? i’ve got nothing against it, generally, this is just me.
because i don’t attach myself to a label, i am fully 100% open to describing who i am to whomever asks, i’ve got nothing to hide. when asked directly, i guess i use bisexual or queer, maybe. but in conversation or writing, anything’s game.
language is fluid and ever-evolving. i understand that many people need to know who you’re sexually attracted to for very practical reasons, and that evolves too, over a lifetime or between people or whatever.
i actually think that this is the first time i’ve really even thought about it, while answering this question. what a voyage of self-discovery.
In conclusion: language is fluid, whether you’re gay or you’re straight or you’re bisexual, you just go with the flow.