i just dropped out of college. I know its the right thing to do, and the AS article helped. I need to recover from a secret eating disorder and come out- my college year was spent hanging out with homophobes and starving. i’m scared to take time for me.
don’t be, it’s ok
i was at the gym swimming laps on coffee/emptiness when i decided to drop out of sarah lawrence because something wasn’t right and i seemed to be accumulating various eds like hobbies and i hated all my friends
i took a semester off, moved to nyc. then in the fall transferred to umich, and felt a lot more clear-headed. like i knew who i was, separate from any kind of institutional structure. i still didn’t like who i was, but at least i KNEW, you know? and then i sat in class and felt lucky that i had years of nonstop learning ahead of me, felt lucky for the structure, felt ready for it.
not graduating college was never an option for me, so when i left i knew i’d go back. that’s different for everyone.
sometimes you just have a really complicated “me” and i think it’s okay to call a timeout to figure out your shit, you know? ‘cause you’re gonna have to do it eventually. now sounds good for you.

