emptiness
- Riese: i like doing autostraddle.
- i enjoy it.
- when the site is down my aggravation isn't just about politics or the business end or how bad this fucks us w/r/t stats, advertisers, future $$, content, sanity, time, creativity, stories passing us by
- but also for the reason that I like it.
- it's fun
- Laneia: yes.
- also i feel very useless, like I have no purpose in life
- Riese: tess just told me tech support told her that our 'IP has been attacked' or something
- something technical that sounds like a giant lie
- Laneia: oh really?
- that does sound like a lie
vintage autostraddle
So today in my psych class we talked a bit about homosexuality. It made me really uncomfortable. I felt like, even in this class of 400 people, I was so obviously gay that everyone must be staring at me and it gave me irrational anxiety. Wtf is that shit.
that is the exact feeling i get when inside a cabela’s, except possibly worse because it is an entire building full of guns. if it is any consolation, i have left cabelas alive so far every time.
some kind of attack on our IP or something
they finally located the source of the problem which i guess is some kind of DDOS “attack” or something (i am probs not explaining this right) which is why this has all been so unpredictable. hopefully absence makes the heart grow fonder, we feel empty
but I am one of the kittens who can’t open the post. damn. and then I became the kid in class who never raised her hand again. ever.
it’s ok i haven’t been able to get to the website all day either and it among other things is making me insane.
http://www.mishkacolombo.com/
damn, who doing the graphics for these poetry posts? imma need an etsy site. kthx.
WE HAVE CREDITED HER AT THE BOTTOM OF THE POST FOR THIS VERY REASON. sorry for yelling it’s just that i think she is cool and am really excited that we have illustrator(s) and i want her to get the credit she deserves.
my heart starts racing and i’m sorta happy when that little green ball next to her name turns green on gmail chat..but i’m angry she’s chosen her over me even though i repaired her heart&vagina. do i delete her or what? how do i block her from my souuul?
oh honey sweetheart love, you have to delete her right now.
how did you come up with the name riese? do you not like your real name? if you dont mind me asking.
i think i should just copy the answer to this question into a sticky note so every time someone asks me (157 times, i think, so far) i can just paste it.
my name is marie. so as a kid, my mom called me “ree” or “ree-ree” which are both short for “marie.” in boarding school, my best friend krista started referring to me as “ris” except it was pronounced “reese” but on everything she has given me, she always calls me RIS. one of the first times i hung out with my bff haviland, in like ‘06, she saw a poster on the wall that krista had made me where she called me “RIS” and so haviland started calling me that too. it sort of caught on, i always felt like “marie” was a really proper girly fancy name for girls that aren’t always getting hit by cars and running into walls. but riese is more gender-neutral and felt more like me.
around this time i was working on a book project and my agent suggested i pick a spelling that would actually make sense phonetically, lest people call me “RIS” like it rhymes with “bliss.” so we started spelling it riese.
When did you first get interested in politics?
It makes me nervous when people ask this b/c I worry they think my writing most of our posts on DADT/Prop 8/whatever means that I “know about politics” or am qualified to be some sort of ‘political correspondent.’ Honestly? I majored in English and I didn’t even vote in the 2008 presidential election (although it wasn’t for lack of trying.) I write most of our news & politics content because when things happen in that vein I tend to be the only one available/able to write/not intoxicated or otherwise incapacitated. I am interested in politics - because I live here, because what politicians do can be either incredibly beneficial or incredibly dangerous, because I was an impressionable teenager during the beginning of the Iraq War, when same-sex marriage was legalized in MA, because it was imprinted on me that politics are the realm in which people can either win or be deprived of power. but I have no more political background or education than anyone else who knows how to use wikipedia.
but for instance right this very second i am listening to NPR and they are talking about a potential “government shutdown” and i honestly have NO IDEA what they are talking about, and it sounds very important, no? I had to listen carefully to figure out if they were talking about the US or a completely different country. i don’t know anything. i wish rachel maddow would write all our news and politics fixes.
okay so rachel i need the helpz.. i am majorly attracted to my sort-of friend who’s basically a total dickwad. but i just want to fuck her. and maybe cuddle. what do i do? also, how do i meet girls? i’m underage, so i can’t go to a bar.
speaking from a surprising amount of experience, you could probably fuck her. like you could make it happen. but the thing is that she’ll still be at least your sort-of friend and also someone you fucked and still a total dickwad. and having fucked her means you will have to deal with those things even after the cuddling is over. there will be a time when you’re like “GOD she is such a dickwad i wish she would just go away” but guess what, you fucked her!
maybe it’s worth it though, i dunno. and honestly if i knew how to meet girls do you think i’d spend this much time on the internet?