my first thought was “if i was alone, my vibrator could be as loud as i wanted it to be. i’d eat wine and cheese literally every night. no, wait, i’d have salads on tuesdays and thursdays. i would go to first friday! omfg if i was all alone i could go to first friday and never have to worry if anyone else was having fun or behaving appropriately or touching something oh my god! i could go see any movie i wanted! even the obscure ones they show in the tiny theater in scottsdale! and tickets would be SO CHEAP because i’d only need to buy them for ME! and i could read with the music on until 5am, i mean, assuming i didn’t have a job to go to at 6am. but still! i could read! i could literally, i think, do anything. if i was all alone.”
but then i thought maybe you meant like, emotionally. so then i thought, “yeah, me too. sometimes.”