RIESE WHAT THE…AM I RIDICULOUS AND STUPID OR IS AUTOSTRADDLE A CENTERED BLUE COLUMN NOW? WHERE IS MY BEAUTIFUL AS SITE? DID I MENTION ALL CAPS. #feelings
the mobile version is a centered blue column now
one of my best friends started dating my crush. and she knew my feelings for that girl. she also lied the whole time about not liking her and stuff. i saw them kissing on friday. i know i have to get away from all of these girls but its just so hard,wwyd?
i’d sit in my room in the darkness crying while listening to elliot smith and ani difranco, i’d drink whiskey out of the bottle, i’d return all those phone calls from exes now that i’m in need of their validation, i’d probably eat nothing all day and then an entire pizza for dinner. i’d put on my running clothes and go outside to “run it off” but then remember that i can’t run and then i’d walk back home and maybe ride my bike around without a helmet on. i’d write a really supremely passive-aggressive devastatingly depressing blog post about all the elements of my pain.
but i wouldn’t be angry at my friend.
perhaps i’m giving your friend too much credit here,
and i don’t know the intricacies of your situation
but your reaction to the news
suggests that perhaps she had valid reasons for not feeling comfortable
sharing her feelings with you until she was sure this thing was A Thing.
the problem with crushes is that you can’t call dibs on a person
nor can you prevent your crush from being with any of your friends
it sucks, it’s painful, it’s one of the worst feelings ever.
you have every right to feel hurt and to have a lot of trouble trusting your friend now.
you’d probably be better off developing your other friendships right now ‘til your mourning is over
get as much positive, loyal energy into your life as you can
but i think channeling this into anger
while satisfying
isn’t, ultimately, productive or justified.
good luck, little brid
When they ask what I’m going to do with that I tell them the truth: I am going to become really, really famous. Like Queen of England/Elton John famous (I am also going become British). I can’t help it that I am destined for stardom. My life has already played out much like the movie Glitter so like, I’ve got a lot going for me.
Laneia!!! Thank you for posting that consent zine. *So many good thoughts.* I practiced Good Consent tonight on a sick person, and yes, asking is sexy. I got kisses and I think maybe I will get a cold. :):):):):)
she’s talking about this the Doris zine: http://doriszineblog.blogspot.com/2008/11/learning-good-consent-zine.html
i recommend it! you can buy Learning Good Consent from Microcosm Publishing: http://microcosmpublishing.com/catalog/zines/2879/
YAY!
i am dressed so cute for a girl today and it’s raining. but i’m still cute! HAPPY SPRING AUTOSTRADDLE
happy spring you darling dear
is it wrong to wear chucks to a funeral? even if they are brand new out of the box?
you’re grieving, you can wear a shoebox on your head if you want to
my mom told me today that ive been sad my whole life. i don’t think that’s true, i can remember lots of times when i was happy. like before i moved back home. she’s just dealing with her own shit, right? i guess my question is, does it get better.
when i was 20 my mom told me that maybe i am just “one of those people who will never be happy” which was unfortunate timing as this asshat i lived with but no longer lived with because he was an asshat and he’d told me that i was a depressive who would never be happy and i was like DAMMIT THEN WHAT’S THE POINT but regardless there were at least 5-6 times this past weekend where i smiled so hard I almost laughed, and today when i was riding my bike to the gym i smiled for no reason like 2-3 times. yes, it does it gets better.
she probably just doesn’t want to take responsibility for your unhappiness because that would make her even less happy than she probably is at this point. it is her own shit. she’s just dealing with her own shit.