there are so many things about this comment that i love
here’s the thing. it is a crazy idea. obviously. you know that or you wouldn’t have asked. we’re all broke as shit and the future is scary and it’s okay because i’m scared too. and one thing that makes it slightly less scary is the idea that what if i didn’t have to worry about money, what if at least i knew i could write the rent check and pay for milk.
but also, baby, i work in a cubicle every day and guess what, it does make you sick. i had literally one in-person conversation today in a nine-hour period. i don’t think i can even tell you what i did in those nine hours. clicked on things? and yeah, the comfort of writing that rent check is real. but there is a different kind of fear, which is the fear of every day of your life being just like this one, with the new product launch party with the free ham and cheese sandwiches being the thing you’re looking forward to. that’s really fucking scary. and so in that way, no, this isn’t crazy. this is the only sane thing. i don’t know what to tell you other than that i’m with you, i can’t stay in this place or else i’m going to go crazy or just shut off. the future is scary but there are people who love you, there are people who will recognize that and they will help you if you need help. there is help.
so i guess what i’m saying is that this is a crazy idea i can get behind. you’re very brave and i’m proud of you. <3
you don’t need to be scared. or you can be scared and still do this. i believe in you. xoxo
i do understand.
maybe you could ask your mother to send you some cookies or even a gift card to a place in your city that makes macaroni and cheese that tastes like hers. when i missed my grandmother and needed to feel less alone, i wore her necklace and made cornbread. she always made cornbread.
p.s. “adult” is a social construct.
Moar shirts are coming. I’m sorry I only get the time to do like, these small dumb orders but I promise this next round (now that we know people actually want them) will have enough so that everyone who wants a tee will get one!
As soon as I get ALL the orders out that just happened… which takes me awhile because I have to hand-write all the addresses and I have to go to the post office to mail all the things and you know how that is!
i also don’t watch glee or listen to adam lambert!!
that is for real seriously the best part of AS, i think, besides you guys – that even the team members are super different with different experiences and ideas and itunes libraries, but what we have in common trumps all of those differences and in the end the differences just become another thing we love about each other.
which is actually how i feel about the whole world, sidenote.
No. I’d attempted to watch it, however I am using free wireless from a hotel lobby in Malta and it is somehow slower than dial-up. If you’re not using dial up then you should probably check it out: http://www.youtube.com/coachella
a) no
b) probably not? not because i don’t love you - i do - but because i don’t know you. i would smile really big and say hello to you there, though, and have several ‘drinks’ or 'something’ and lie in the grass with you under one of those shade trees and periodically check my phone for email while we talked about what it was like to be you / me / us and how life is amazing and quick, like lining up three hundred billion gnats and blinking. i’d remember your name.
c) bonnaroo changed my life. right now i can’t stop listening to the new lykke li, old beirut and this dusty aretha franklin record whose name i can’t remember. and i go between a cake station and a station titled '2010 again’ on slacker dot com, so clearly i’m open to suggestions / sendspace links.
