Is your niece your brother’s daughter?
she’s my half-brother’s daughter – the (adopted) son of my “other mom”
Did ambien make you gain weight? (I think i’ve gained 10 pounds b/c of it). Also, without it I stay up until 5:00 am every morning. I also tend to do things I regret while on it. How did you get off of it?
no, ambien didn’t make me gain weight
i got off ambien because i ran out of ambien
and didn’t ask a doctor for more
see,
i’ve never blacked out from drinking
so ambien was my first experience
with doing things i don’t remember
b/c i remember everything
i write everything down
it makes me crazy
i loved not knowing for once.
i’m also on elavil for my fibro
which helps me sleep i think
or at least it placebos me into sleep
i generally can fall asleep within an hour
whereas it used to be like 4 hours
also weed helps JUST SAY NO TO DRUGS
about ~1 month ago i came into some ambien
and started taking it in tiny dosages
b/c i mean – when you’ve spent your whole life lying in bed anxious that you won’t fall asleep before sunrise
the possibility of a pill knocking you out instantly
is just such a fucking RELIEF
it had been so long – 6 months, maybe?
since i’d taken them. and i noticed as i
went back to taking ambien, every day
i felt slightly shittier than i had the week before
but unlike last time, i noticed it
because i was ready to
and i realized i used to feel this shitty
every fucking day for like a year
but i thought it was me
not drowsy – which is what you’re told to look out for – just shitty.
so i stopped taking them, again.
then i had to take an ambien a week later
and a week after that and this – this is the craziest part –
i felt colossally depressed the day after the night i took it for the first time following an absence of it. like terrible. i cried every single one of
those first days. and i remembered how in 2006, i took ambien for probably the second time that entire year and the next day was so awful that i got into an unfixable fight with the girl i was dating and fucked up my whole life
it’s sad, b/c for so long i loved the idea of a pill that could fix the insomnia i’ve had since i was a little kid, and a pill w/o consequences, like the lethargy otc sleeping pills provide. but there isn’t after all. there are profound consequences.
i’m serious, stop taking it and you are going to feel so much better in a few days. i don’t know how to describe it but you won’t feel it unless it’s been a few days without it. it’s like coming up from underwater!
talk to your doctor about other options, like anti-anxiety pills before bed or something, or marijuana if that’s legal in your state/country.
i think i’ve wanted to tell everyone this for a while because i wish someone had told me. i’m terrified of the person i become the day after the first pill, because that person is wretched and unpredictable and emotionally disabled and i can’t do that to the people i love again.
i don’t think you’re going to give it up because i said this. but i think you’re going to think about it constantly until you do. so thanks for asking.
i ran out of ambien in october 2010 and i think everyone who knows me can attest i’ve been significantly happier since that time.
i hope that helps.
What a week, kids! Catch up on Gaga’s Born This Way press extravaganza with hilarious appearances on the Late Show w/David Letterman & Saturday Night Live.
Scheiße is my dog Arthur’s favorite song because the way she says Scheiße in the chorus sounds sorta like “schnauzer.”
Riese I am so horny, and so so bored of revising. When will I get laid?
today i think. probably today.
Shane is Edward Cullen for lesbians. Oh lord.
oh i don’t know, i think shane is a little more hands-off than E-Cul. Seems less controlling and border-line psychotic. E’s got this manipulative, nearly emotionally-abusive thing he does and lord JESUS is the man possessive. Shane’s more like “whatever,” you know? I mean, that’s just my opinion though.
…think about getting together with friends that you admire, or envy. Think about entrepeneuring. Think about NOT waiting for a company to call you up. Think about not giving your heart to a bunch of adults you don’t know. Think about horizontal loyalty. Think about turning to people you already know, who are your friends, or friends of their friends and making something that makes sense to you together, that is as beautiful or as true as you can make it.
And when it comes to security, to protection, your friends may take better care of you than CBS took care of Charles Kuralt in the end. In every career, your job is to make and tell stories, of course. You will build a body of work, but you will also build a body of affection, with the people you’ve helped who’ve helped you back.
And maybe that’s your way into Troy.
I keep having dreams where I get my girlfriend pregnant. They’re kind of awesome. What does that mean?
do you maybe want to have a baby with your girlfriend? sorry, obtuse dream interpretations are not my strong point.
is it okay to be crying because all i want is for us to be together all day every day and sometimes it feels like the world doesn’t want that to happen and sometimes i wish we both didn’t exist, just us in our nonexistant states, i’d even quit all my jobs
one of my favorite mountain goats lines is “i quit my job so i could hold you all the time”
i don’t think not existing will solve this problem, though. just my opinion.
“According to this poll, we have four ‘alternative’ girls in all of Hollywood and any role that calls for someone slightly outside the ‘norm’ will go to one of them.”
I like girls & occasionally I crush on guys. Like now. I really want to kiss my friend but I don’t really want sex with him. Guys have always been a disaster, they’re always too into me, I never enjoy the sex. It hurts us both. What do I do and what am I?
hello human, you are a human. i believe it’s always always best to be totally honest as often as possible. to eliminate possible confusion, i think i would say:
“hey there attractive boyperson, i’d really like to makeout with you; i enjoy the way you take up space. things i don’t want to do with you include ‘sex’ and 'parallel parking’ because i don’t find either of them enjoyable. what do you think, boyperson? how do you feel? could we be on the same page?”
Any words from grad school? (or is it not a good time to ask this question) Did you apply to ucla? It’d be great to have you here. We can suffer together as grad students (altho im studying something different)
yup! i am going to school/moving in august. not to ucla, though. sorry!
she dumped me and said it was because my depression and anxiety were too much for her to deal with but she still wants to be friends. I think she’s an asshole and don’t want to be friends. That makes sense and is okay, right?
yes
there’s nothing quite so anxiety-inducing and depressing as hanging out with someone who thinks you’re excessively depressed/anxious, because you spend the whole time trying to prove your sanity through tiny words/gestures, which means you’re being an actress, so if she’s not buying tickets for your show, you can’t just let her sneak in for free and smugly applaud your benevolently extended exercise in self-denial.