i will see you at the San Francisco Pride Parade, son.
GET.
READY.
here. i. come.
no! that idea is so upsetting to me. the only things that are necessary to be a good writer is writing and reading. writing and reading often and with an eye towards improving. alcoholism is in fact directly detrimental to both these things, because alcoholism saps you of a desire to do anything but drink or die slowly. this is true regardless of how much you like hemingway.
there are people who believe that some things, like depression, can be useful for writing. i believe the exact term is that it “[strips] off ways of getting through life that prevent you from having to think.” (http://maudnewton.com/blog/?p=9551) (alcoholism would be a good example of that btw)
in my experience though depression just sort of makes it so you don’t want to do anything at all
i think if you lived through tila tequila, it sort of numbed you a little. much like tequilla itself.
i was sent to therapy ~4-5 times between the ages of 13 and 19 but it’d never last ‘cause i was unwilling to talk about anything true with anyone, and so i’d just act out i guess. eventually it’d reach a 'why are you here if you don’t want to be here’ thing.
then i got fibro so i had to go see a psychiatrist to get elavil, somehow my first session happened the day after something sort of horrifying had happened and so i was like a total hot mess from the get-go and i guess after that i was always like 'well she’s already seen me at my worst so there’s nowhere to go but up.’ so i saw her from 2001 'til 2004, then i moved to nyc, and got on medicaid and saw lindsay from 2006 'til 2010 when she moved her practice to long island which i think is when i decided to move here. i saw another person for a little while, and now i’m here in california with no insurance.
i don’t know why i just told you all of those random details and didn’t really answer your question. i guess i don’t know. i feel really privileged that i was able to have all that attention paid to my mental health, and maybe I have a hard time talking about why that is.
i don’t know. honestly usually half of my friends at any given time are in therapy.
luckily i am totally sane and fine, and can talk to myself about my problems, eat sandwiches, charge my ipod, ride my bicycle over speedbumps, and all the other parts of life!
i believe you can choose one or the other. Or even both. Or neither. I believe that’s entirely up to you.
wait parents do this?!!
give us your mom’s phone number and tess will call and motherfuck her
oh god, i don’t know what you should do.
a proxy servero r osmething
I like kittens and baby otters as much as the next person - perhaps more! - but I think we could see some more diversity in the adorable-baby-animal category. Puppies are also way cute, as are pretty much all baby mammals and a surprising number of baby reptiles.
i will see you at the San Francisco Pride Parade, son.
GET.
READY.
here. i. come.