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I had trust issues even before I met her. If I was damaged before, now I’m ruined. Help?

looking back on my life
and all the liars and cheaters
all the delusions i believed in that weren’t real
sold to me by delusional people
the secret relationships people had
with other people
while also in a relationship with me
and hell the things i’ve done to people, too,
in the past,

i think that “trust issues”
are inevitable
like chicken pox
the really bad kind
that scars

but trust issues aren’t necessarily a trump card
one day you’ll meet a person you can trust
not because “trustworthy” is a fixed quality —
sometimes you can trust a person
who somebody else trusted but shouldn’t have —
but someone who, for whatever reason,
loves you louder than your issues.
it’s real , i promise.

you’re not ruined,
you’re just alive.

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16 February 2012 ·

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